Wow, after several years ive decided to try and resurrect this little blog of mine. I recently told a friend I missed having a place to write. Then out of nowhere a blog "challenge" if you will came about on a public group im in. So here I am and I'm going to try and keep this thing going. Bare with me as I make changes and update content. Feel free to sift through my old posts, you just might learn something new about me....

Friday, April 30, 2010

Lane Bryant Bra Commercial Banned by ABC & Fox?!? What do YOU think of it?

Maegan brought this up on her blog and I had to mention it as well.  I was shocked!  Thanks Maegan for bringing this up! 

What do you ladies think?  Personally I am a big Lane Bryant bra fan, I've mentioned that I wear them on here a few times.  I don't think this commercial is as bad as half the ones I've seen on TV for Carl's Jr (ala Kim Kardashion) and other Victoria Secret commercials.  I agree with Maegan - I think this was banned on Fox & ABC due to the size of the model and not the content.  Other products have much more suggestive commercials as well (hello Trojan & Red Bull) so I don't believe it has to do with any sexual reference.  I'm just shocked this is a problem. 

It's really upsetting as a bigger person to not see more support.  I understand all these shows like Biggest Loser and that new Food Revolution show are out there showing people how to be healthier.  I think that is wonderful and I don't support morbid obesity or people who don't even try to be fit.  But being fit doesn't always mean being skinny!  You don't have to support obesity and unhealthy living to be supportive of healthy, fit, heavier set people like the beautiful lady in this ad. 

What do you ladies think?  Should this have been banned? 

Lunch Date with Hubby.

Per the Dr. Kris and I are spending some time away from Aiden.  Trying to make sure we are getting enough "mommy & daddy" time and also some well needed quiet time.  We went for sushi last month and today we went out for lunch at Ramono's Macaroni Grill.  We'd heard mixed reviews, but we had a gift card and figured we couldn't let it go to waste!

It was soo yummy!!  They start of the meal with olive oil and fresh cracked black pepper to go with their bread.  Oh my goodness it was such fresh bread.  I had a blackberry mint ice tea which was also very refreshing.  Different, but I enjoyed it.  For dinner Kris got Shrimp Portofino - Jumbo shrimp sauteed with fresh spinach, mushrooms and pine nuts in a lemon butter sauce with imported capellini pasta.  I had Mushroom Ravioli - Ravioli filled with tender mushrooms and melted cheese, then topped with Marsala cream sauce.  Both were really good, but I had to say I think mine was better! 

We both got dessert too!  Don't you have to have dessert when you go out to eat?  I think so!  Kris had Simple Lemon Pound Cake - lemon pound cake garnished with fresh strawberries and I had Smothered Chocolate Cake - rich chocolate cake topped with homemade ganache and pecan pieces.  As you can see they both looked delish.  My cake was soo rich though I had to take most of it home.  I plan to enjoy the leftovers soon with coffee.  

Oh!  And they had the white paper down on the table for us to color on.  Crayons were provided of course!  So I took the lead and drew an Orca whale.  Kris was a restaurant prude - he was afraid to color and said I was acting like a high schooler.  He also did not approve of me brushing crumbs off the table onto the floor.  Lastly when I added more Olive Oil to our dish he said "I don't think you are supposed to do that".  I teased him.  Finally he joined in on coloring!

After we had our lunch we went to Walmart to get a few things we needed {soo romantic I know} and then on to Best Buy to browse around.  It was just nice to be out and not have to worry about if Aiden needs a nap or a bottle or a diaper change.  Usually I don't mind, he loves going to Target with us, but sometimes it's nice to go without him.  My mom enjoyed time with Aiden anyway. 

Next week we have a date to go see Iron Man 2 in theaters.  Very excited about that too - we haven't seen a movie since Thanksgiving when Aiden was a baby and slept through it.  Next weekend Kris' parents get to watch him while we go out.  Spreading the love! 


Book Review: Sarah's Key

Sarah's Key by Tatiana de Rosnay

This book was a random find at Target and I really enjoyed it. Here is what the back cover of the book said that made me want to read it....

PARIS, JULY 1942: Sarah, a ten-year-old girl, is taken with her parents by the French police as they go door-to-door arresting Jewish families in the middle of the night. Desperate to protect her younger brother, Sarah locks him in a bedroom cupboard – their secret hiding place – and promises to come back for him as soon as they are released.
SIXTY YEARS LATER: Sarah’s story intertwines with that of Julia Jarmond, an American journalist investigating the roundup. In her research, Julia stumbles onto a trail of secrets that link her to Sarah, and to questions about her own romantic future.

The first thing I had to know was "did he get out of the cupboard?!?" and of course I can't share that with you because if I did it would ruin the book for you!  I am surprised I didn't cry while reading this book.  It was a very eye opening book.  Everyone knows about the Holocaust, some know more than others of course, but this book touched upon the events of the Vel’ d’Hiv’ {a stadium where Jews were held before going to Auschwitz}.  The french police were the ones who went and arrested the Jews, not the Germans, and so a lot of people didn't know what was going on and what to think.  It was interesting to read some of the lesser known events of the Holocaust, this book has a lot of facts, but by no means is historical or overloaded with facts. 

You follow the young girl Sarah and Julia as she learns about Sarah's past and find out more about her future.  Julia has struggles with her family, her husband and grows as a mother when she learns more about the children affected in the past, like Sarah and her brother.  The two stories are easily intertwined and I has no problem following along.  I plan to pass this book along to my mom and would suggest others read it too.  I hope you enjoy if you give it a read. 

Thursday, April 29, 2010

A Little Life Update & Aiden Pics!

My son is fussy.  Really that's the biggest news to me.  I think he is starting to teeth for his upper teeth lately.  Also he has been working harder and crawling and pulling himself up.  The sleep at night is getting better after a week of waking up constantly.  We even got a few nights of 9 hours without a peep from him.  I'll be glad when we start getting that regularly again.  It helps all of us to get a good nights sleep!

{picture of Aiden eating yogurt}
{picture of Aiden watching tv on the floor}

I went to my dr. for a follow up on my Postpartum Depression.  I told her I was still having bad days and the meds seem to wear off at night and I have a harder time.  So she went ahead and gave me 40mg instead of the current 20mg a day I was taking.  Hopefully the extra boost will help me feel stable all day and night!  She also said I might want to consider speaking to a therapist, just to have an outsider to understand what I am going through.  It looks like my mom's work offers family up to 6 free visits, so I may just look into that. 

Another note of my health, I had my IUD removed.  I just feel like the added hormones from it aren't doing me any good.  I've heard that Mirena can have some strong emotional side affects and I figured it's best if I don't have that on top of everything else.  Not to mention the constant yeast infections I've been having.  I'm 100% certain it's from my IUD so I am soo relieved to have it out and hopefully get past that as well.  Sorry if that is TMI for you readers, but I figured I someone else is having IUD troubles they'd find comfort in knowing what I went through.  Just for the record, I am back on birth control pills for now.  It's the same one I was on for 8 years so I know I don't have problems with it and look forward to having NO side affects!

I finished yet another book, Sarah's Key.  I read it in 5 days and will have a review up for it soon.  I'm now at 6 books completed for the year.  I will surely be passing my goal of 12 for the year if I keep up at this rate.  I have already started my next book.  Angels & Demons by Dan Brown.  I have seen the movie, but only once, so it's slowly coming back to me as I read.  I like that I haven't seen this movie too much though, makes the next time I watch it even better!  I have the newest book, The Lost Symbol, to read later on too. 

I guess that is about all.  Aiden has been trying a lot of table foods and I"ll be adding something about it on the sidebar.  Keep your eye out for that!  Hope all is well.  I'm sorry I've been lame at leaving comments.  Lately I only have time to skim through my reader before I have to get offline.  I'll try to do better.

{last 2 pics are of Aiden's new smile - it's his "cheese" smile.  He looks like a little pirate - he closes one eye and sticks his teeth out}

Monday, April 26, 2010

Book Review: Down Came the Rain by Brooke Shields

I have been very open lately about having Postpartum Depression.  It's not always easy talking about it openly, but I think it's important.  Brooke Sheilds takes the same approach.  She is a celebrity and has always been in the public eye, but she isn't afraid to share her story in Down Came the Rain.

This book was her own personal story about her struggle and triumph through Postpartum Depression.  Her depression was much worse than my own, she had thoughts of running away from her baby or visions of her baby being hurt.  She talks about how she ignored her feelings and what her caring friends were trying to tell her.  She went through a few different medicines before finally finding one that worked to keep her feeling "normal".  She went and talked to a therapist about her feelings and find comfort in that.  She talks about her struggle to go back to being in showbiz and how she juggles being a working mom.  Her story is very touching.  Her husband was a great support to her and she eventually found a Filipino baby nurse to help her around the house and keeping her daughter on a schedule while she was at work or having a bad day.  She had to learn who she was again in order to find out how to be a mother.

A few of my personal favorite quotes from this book, quotes that spoke to me and that I could relate to are the following: 
"I was feeling so bad that I found it hard to believe a tiny pink pill could lift the black cloud following me around like Pigpin from Peanuts."
"I shouldn't be afraid or embarrassed to take medicine, and it was not a terrible thing to accept all the help that was available."
"....and I had to admit to being a legitimate member of a depressed mommy society.  Did this mean that I was crazy or that I was destined to be on the six o'clock news because of my inevitable actions?  Of course not."
I think this is a quick and great read for anyone, but especially someone struggling with Postpartum Depression.  It was great to read someone else's story. 

Her book ends with Rowan turning 1.  Since writing this book Brooke went on to have another daughter without having any PPD problems the second time around.  This is very encouraging to me personally.

Aww - My Brother's Senior Prom!

I can't believe my little brother is almost done with High School.  How did that happen?  It makes me feel soo old!  Here I am married and raising a little boy and my brother is off to college soon!  Gah!  He will be going to The University of Hawaii in the fall and he couldn't be happier.  I'm a bit sad he isn't following my footsteps and going to The University of Washington - he did get accepted there though!  I don't talk about him enough on here, but he is super smart.  He isn't always street smart, but he will do great things in life.  As his grad party approaches I am sure you will all hear more about him.  In the meantime I would like to share some of his prom pictures!  Enjoy!

This is Brock and one of his best friends Dalila - she looked like a greek goddess!

This is Brock and his date Zhanna (like Shawna).

Sunday, April 25, 2010

A Wonderful Weekend! {so far...}

My weekend started on Friday.  My mom bought me a 1 hour massage.  I was nervous going - I don't know why, I've had a hand full of massages before.  I think I was nervous to parallel park downtown, but even that went well and I found a spot on the corner to pull into!  At first I was a little tense, I always have that period of "do you talk?"  "do I fall asleep?" dialogue going through my head.  I did start to relax though and soon was enjoying every minute.  Margaret does Thai massage, it is some actual massaging, but a lot of it is just pressure and stretching my muscles a bit.  It felt wonderful and the hour went by way too quickly.  I didn't realize how much I really needed that, but it helped a lot.  I told myself while I was laying there "I'm healing my body and my mind". 

Here is a video of Aiden playing his uncle Jeff's car. 

Saturday was a very busy day for us.  Went went to Target and got Aiden some much needed sleep short sets.  He has been getting way to hot in his footie jammies.  We also found some shorts on sale for him so he is all set for summer clothes now!  My mom-in-love also bought me 2 new books to read.  I am very excited, I started one that afternoon!

Then it was off to a birthday party!  Aiden's cousin Marcus turned 1 so we all headed over to the party.  It was great to see all the family.  Marcus wasn't super social with Aiden, but Aiden loved playing with his cousin's Kingston (9 months old) and JJ who is 5.  I took lots of video of them together.  I'm excited to see them grow up together and hopefully become friends.  Aiden was the biggest of the babies.  He didn't use to be, but he has double the size of Kingston and is pretty equal to Marcus.  Aiden is the youngest of the 3 boys.  I was very proud of Aiden.  He was willing to be passed around from person to person, he played on the floor, he tried to eat everyone's food.  In the end he ate some sardines and rice, peas and carrots from fried rice, had some banana and had a little bit of pork I think.  Everyone was shocked he was eating table foods and reaching for it.  I was proud of him.  He's the best eater and is very well behaved for a baby. 

Aiden meeting his cousin's JJ and Kingston.
Aiden was awake most of the day too.  He didn't take a good nap until 6pm and even that nap was for about 30 minutes.  He adjusted well to his schedule being completely ruined and came home in a good mood.  We gave him a late bath and he played for a while and was sound asleep at 9pm.  We even had a good night of sleep.  He woke up very briefly at 1230a and then was up for about 30 minutes at 440am.  I can tell that even though my medicine needs to be adjusted I am doing better.  I was in a good mood and didn't mind being up with Aiden during the night.  It made me feel good that I could just hold him and love him back to sleep and not be stressing over it.  It was a good day for all of us.

JJ trying to teach Aiden to clap.

Today we are just going to be relaxing at home.  My mom is making dinner.  We may do some cleaning or laundry, but I plan to just rest and read.

Friday, April 23, 2010

I'm Published!

I wrote an article for New Parent called "There's No Me in Mommy" about finding time for yourself after you have a baby.  I would love it if you all took a minute to read it!  Come back and tell me what you thought of it!

Go read it HERE. 

Jillian Michaels on weight and pregnancy....

All I can say is wow.  Kris told me "Jillian is going to adopt" and I said "oh yeah, where did you read that" and he told me to go to yahoo.com.  So I did and started reading the article.... you can find it for yourself HERE.

Now, I hope you all took a minute to look at that, but if not I will sum it up for you.  Let me first remind you who Jillian is... she is the well known personal trainer on The Biggest Loser.  She is someone who often makes contestants get in touch with their real problems, they usually cry around her - because of a breakthrough emotionally or because she scares them is up for interpretation - and she often works people to the point of vomiting.  She even has said she likes to make people cry and throw up.  Now, I believe she does this with tough love in mind.  She wants the person to push harder than before to really see what they can accomplish.  I do think she gets some pleasure out of making people cry though.  She seems like a controller to me.

Okay so back to that article above.  She is quoted as saying "I'm going to adopt. I can't handle doing that to my body" - now this article doesn't say if she elaborated on that or not, but I have some major issues with that statement.  I sure hope it was taken out of context, for her sake.  If she prides herself with being able to get people in shape and to eat healthy, shouldn't she be okay with her own body image?  I would hope that she has enough will power to gain a reasonable about of weight and to keep herself active during pregnancy.  Many women get pregnant and gain little weight and stay fit right up until birth.  Then they snap back into shape easily.  I was not one of these women, but I would hope that she would see getting pregnant as an opportunity to be a role model.  As a public figure known for her healthy diet and her trim body she could show women how to be fit during pregnancy, she could write another book about it, or heck even make more workout dvds for expecting mothers.

Her next sentence was "Also, when you rescue something, it's like rescuing a part of yourself."  It's one thing to say you want to adopt for a reason like that.  There are a lot of children in need of a good home, I fully support adoption.  I don't support a public health figure saying that pregnancy is bad for the body and that is why she wants to adopt.  It's nature, it's how things happen.  I just hope that when she does adopt she teaches her child better self esteem and that you should love your body no matter what - especially when you are growing god's gift in it. 

I hope I am making sense here.  Hopefully I didn't offend anyone.  I know most my readers are mom's and I just feel that her quote really makes women feel like being pregnant is a bad thing for you, when in reality rearing children is what our body was intended to do.  I guess it just really hit a nerve in me.  I instantly felt I needed to share this and to vent about how it made me feel.  What do you think?  Do you think she was taken out of context? 

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Book Review: Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows

I almost didn't do a book review for this one.  I don't know why, but I feel silly reviewing this book.  I mean I guess if you'd read the first 6 books you would enjoy this post, but otherwise it's kind of childish. 
Harry Potter is finally concluded.  It's a nail bitter too.  At least it was for me!  I couldn't put it down.  Sure it was a bit daunting, being over 700 pages and all, but it was a very quick read indeed {just shy of a week for me and I was up reading until midnight}.  Harry, Hermione and Ron set out to finish the job that Dumbledore gave them.  They travel in and out of the muggle world, the come across a handful of scary and interesting people.  They fight, the get hurt, some characters die {I will say it was not one of the main 3 though} and I was gasping aloud and in shock for the majority of the book.  We finally understand Snape a bit more too.  I can't really share more than that because I'd hate to ruin it for someone.  It sure did make me eager for the next movie.  It's going to drive me insane that the last book was broken into 2 movies though - I am already going crazy waiting!

In conclusion, I did like the way the book ended.  I was afraid that J.K. Rowling would leave the readers hanging.  I hate that.  I hate when books don't have a real finish to them.  This one did.  She made sure to tie up some lose ends and tell us where the main characters landed later in life.  Very fulfilling.  So if you have followed along with the gang, pick this one up and finish the series!  You won't be disappointed.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Writer's Workshop: Mother's. Warning Mom - you will cry.

5.) Mother’s Day is coming…what is the secret behind the close bond you have with your mom? OR What do you do to create that close bond with your kids?
Mama's Losin' It

My mom and I have always had a one of a kind bond.  She was a single mom and was young and unwed when she had me.  She faced a lot of hardships in her decision to have me and she did it with honor.  She tried really hard to give me everything she could and to build the kind of relationship with me that she herself didn't have with her mom.  My mom and I have always shared something special that a lot of people don't understand.  My mom is my best friend, well okay, best female friend. 

My mom worked hard to build a good relationship with me.  She taught me early on that I didn't need to be ashamed to come to her with any of my problems or be afraid to tell her anything.  My mom bought me alcohol - she would say she'd rather know what and how much I was drinking in college instead of me trusting other's to provide something that may not have been safe.  She said under supervision was better than not.  She helped me get on birth control pills before becoming sexually active so I didn't repeat her mistake of being a young unwed mother.  She let me gossip about kissing boys and cry over cheating boyfriends.  Even today, being married, I can turn to my mommy for love advice or sexual advice.  Heck, she paid for yeast infection medicine for me tonight.  I know that's silly, but even at 26 my mommy comes to my rescue.

I have struggled with eating disorders since junior high.  She threatened to put me in a hospital when I was younger, to protect me.  She let me come home after college in tears because I had reached a new low and was having severe pain due to mistreating myself.  She held my hand, made sure I was eating healthy and regularly (and was keeping it down) and got me on my feet again.  These days my mom is more support than I could ever ask for, even joining weight watchers with me at one point to help me in learning to lose weight the correct way.  She has been my biggest supporter and has always seen me as beautiful, at my skinnest and now at my heaviest. 

My true respect for my mom only came recently, in the form of a little boy named Aiden.  I didn't really learn how much my mom gave to me and loved me until Aiden was born.  She was there at the hospital and held me still as I shook from the pain of contractions.  She waited and cried with my husband as they took me away for an emergency c-section.  She held my newborn son and helped me to breastfeed.  Even when I was becoming a mom, she was still my mom and kissed me as I went in terror to have my son.  No matter how old you are, you really are always someone's baby!  My mom is helping me fight my battle with PPD - she has been encouraging, and loving and helping me to find my way.  Just today she said she believes that through my writing I will help someone else.  That's just the kind of thing a mother says. 

I hope to teach Aiden the things my mom has taught me.  To be strong, confident, loving and funny.  My mom started traditions for the holiday's that I want to continue.  She always buys us new pj's to wear to bed, and a new ornament to hang on the tree Christmas eve.  She has now started doing the same for my hubby too.  We have homemade chili on halloween.  She gives us a card for each holiday.  We have family game nights.  All these things, and many more, I hope to continue with my own family.

I hope to be half the mom that my mom is.  I already feel like I'm falling behind in her tracks, but without a doubt she will help me along my own path.  She is my mom.  She is my hero.  She is my best friend.  She is my therapist.  She is my everything. 

Happy Mother's Day (early!) Mommy.  I know you read this, are probably sobbing, and are about to call me.  Hehe.  :)

Blogger Awards!

The Kreativ Blogger Award Rules:
1. Post the award. {Done!}

2. Thank and mention the person who gave you the award.  {I got this lovely award from Kim at "Who Needs Sleep" - go check her out!  Thank you Kim!  She has a cute little boy named Aiden too - he is roughly a month younger than my little guy!}

3. Pass the award on to seven blogs who you think embody the spirit of the Kreativ Blogger Award.
Mommy's Sippy CupMoments & ImpressionsAll Work & No Play...,  The Seattle Smith'sMake It & Love ItLoves of LifeNot Your Mama's Martha

4. Name seven things about yourself that others don't know.
  1. I want my hair to be long enough to cover my nipples - again.  It took 3 years for it to get this way before and then I went and cut it really short!  It's been about 16 months of growing it back out now, getting closer!
  2. I watch Days Of Our Lives (DOOL) everyday, and have been watching it daily for 15 years now.
  3. I have a birthmark on my bum - it's small though.
  4. I can't parallel park - like at all.  I suck at it, I panic over it, I will circle and circle to avoid doing it or even pay for parking if that is an option.  I've even parked 4+ blocks away instead of parallel parking right in front of the building.  It scares me!
  5. I want to write a book about my life, even more so now that I'm surviving PPD.
  6. I'm a plant killer, I totally have a black thumb.
  7. I can pop my right hip in an out of socket and it got really bad when I was preggo, but it is better now than it eve has been.  Strange, I think maybe when my hips/pelvis resettled after Aiden was born it clicked something back in for me!
5. Don't forget to notify your seven bloggers about their award and post a link to their blog. {Done!}

Share 10 random things about myself and then pass this award on to 10 of my favorite bloggers.
Thanks to Mommy's Sippy Cup {aka Jessica} for this award!

I've already done this award once so i won't go through the whole thing again, but THANK YOU again for the award.  If you were listed above and already have that one, but not this one, take it instead!  Heck, take them both ladies!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


I'm too boring for a catchy subject...

So what has been going on here?  A whole lot, and a whole lot of nothing.  Seriously.  Either I am having a great day, Aiden is happy (he is now up on his hands and knees rocking these days!), hubby is working on cars and all is well.  Or I am having a down or stressed day, Aiden is being super fussy because he can't figure out crawling or we think he is starting to teeth again, and my hubs is stressed because he is trying to keep everyone happy. 

That is our current life.  I am trying to take more bubble baths full of candles and wine.  I've been a reading fool lately - I read Harry Potter book 7 (754pages) in just short of a week.  I am on Down Came the Rain by Brooke Shields now.  This is already book 5 for the year.  I don't know why but I sometimes go on these reading spurts, I love a good book!

I'm having yeast infection problems (TMI - sorry!) due to my Mirena.  It's driving me crazy on top of the PPD I have to worry about.  I think that I had one infection and everytime I get it cleared up the damn "germies" cling to my IUD strings and start up again.  This month alone I have taken 2 doses of meds to clear it up and I hate to say it but I think it's back already.  So I am contemplating having it taken out and just going back to the pill.  I love it very much, nothing to remember, don't know it's there, no periods (well, okay I've had 1 very minimal so hardly worth counting), but this whole yeast infection not going away is such a drag.  I think my body is just too sensitve and doesn't like it in there.  I'd rather go back to the pill then to deal with this until the end of the year when I planned to take it out.  Anyone else have this problem?

I am going to the Dr next week to adjust my meds for PPD.  They seem to wear out through the day.  My dinner time I seem to be more on edge and feel overwhelmed again.  It's not as bad, but I am eagerly awaiting my appointment to have it adjusted so I feel even better. 

I've got a ton of crafty ideas going through my head, like I bought stuff to make some cute little diaper covers for Aiden.  He loves to be in just a diaper but he trys to take his diaper off.  So I am gonna make some minky bloomers (boyish of course!) for him.  I also want to go to yard sales and find old furniture to redo and use.  Oh well, in time.

That is really all that is going on.  Hope everyone is well.  Sorry I've been a lame commenter lately.  Too busy reading!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Aiden's First Haircut!

I can't believe he had his first haircut, but he did!  Aiden had these little whispy hairs above his ears.  They were so long that they could touch his eye.  When they would dry they would stick out like a clown.   Kris said it was time to cut them so that his hair is more even and grows long all together.  So he did it.  No warning, just said "hold him, i'm gonna cut his hair."  So I grabbed the camera and here it goes.....

Before pic - see the whispy hairs?
Daddy making the first cuts!
He was looking at me like "seriously mom, you are taking pics of this?" - note the 3 skin colors lol
See how much hair we took off - this is just one ear worth.  Yes, I saved the hair for his baby book.
Handsome boy afterwards!
Playing with the remotes and sitting like a big boy!

Friday, April 16, 2010

10 Minutes To Heal

I am slowly learning how to cope with my postpartum depression.  I'm trying not to let it get the best of me, but sometimes it does.  Some days I just can't handle it.  When Aiden is super fussy, or won't nap.  When Kris leaves dishes out instead of putting them in the dishwasher, therefore ruining my "clean" house.  I feel like my meds run out before the end of the day.  I feel good most mornings, but come dinner time I start to feel on edge, irritated, stressed all over again.  I am going to the Dr. again in a couple weeks and I think we will need to up my dosage of meds to help it get me through a complete day. 
I am learning that when I start to feel overwhelmed I need to take 10 minutes for myself.  10 minutes doesn't seem like a lot, but oh man is it ever making a big difference for me!  For example, I was feeling like the house was cluttered and I couldn't handle it, I just couldn't relax.  So I took time during each commercial break of the show we were watching (Biggest Loser) and each break I spent 2 minutes picking up something.  The kitchen, the dishes, clearing off the coffee table and living room floor, putting up the laundry that was folded.  Within a few commercial breaks I felt like the house was much cleaner and I was able to sit and relax.  Last night I started to have a breakdown when Aiden was getting super fussy fighting bedtime.  I took a 10 minute bubble bath with candles to just calm myself down.  It helped a ton, and what do you know, Kris had gotten Aiden down to sleep by the time I got out of the tub! 

This morning I am home with Aiden alone.  We had a little playtime, some cartoons on tv, but then he was not letting me put him down for a nap.  So by the time I finally got him down, my stress level was up.  I took 10 minutes and did some boxing in my living room to burn off some steam and then took a nice shower.  I decided to take 10 minutes (yes, it takes this long...) to dry and straighten my hair after I got dressed.  It's amazing what a little workout, and a little time to make myself feel "pretty" can do.  I am now calm and collected and waiting for Aiden to wake up!  Now this afternoon doesn't seem so daunting.  I can handle it - 10 minutes at a time!

I guess the key to recovery is one day at a time.  Not just one day though, 10 minutes at a time for me.  If I can get through 10 minutes of stress and then let myself relax again I will be okay.  I just have to keep reminding myself that I am feeling much better, much more often, than I was just a few weeks ago.  Who knows how long it will be until I really feel great, but I am slowly learning some tricks to make myself feel more normal.  To feel like I am not going crazy and I can really handle this.  It's not easy everyday, but it's easier, and that is improvement. 

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

TONS OF PICS - and a quick weigh-in.

So first off I wrote about my start back into working out and getting back on track physically on my weight loss blog HERE - here is a little preview - I only gained .9lbs in 2 weeks of my not working out!!  Yay me.

Okay now for some fun stuff.  Kris got a remote control for his camera and has been playing around with it, and with a watermark and with the exposure etc.  He has really started to show some improvement in his photography and I just can't help but show them off!  I mean they are of my cute little boy and handsome husband.  So please sit back and enjoy the picture overload! Oh and these were all taken the last 3 days.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Aiden and Daddy Bathtime

Kris and I take turns giving Aiden his bath.  Well it was Kris' turn the other day and I walked in to find Daddy and Aiden together in the big boy tub!  Kris had on a swimsuit so I used this chance to take pictures.  I had to share because these were soo very sweet.  Aiden just loved splashing in the big boy tub.  Soon he will be sitting up well enough to do this on his own!

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