McFatty Monday

How is this for McFatty Monday: 

I haven't worked out in almost 2 weeks.

I had a McDonald's Double Cheeseburger Meal with an extra double cheeseburger for lunch today. Plus a root beer.

Yep - I FAIL.

Tomorrow I am determined to start back on working out.  I don't *think* I have gained much if any weight because my eating habits have been good (minus today's lunch of course).  Now that I am starting to feel better mentally I am hoping to get back on track physically too.  So here is to next weeks post - I WILL weigh in AND post pictures!  I MUST. 

McFatty Monday's = FAIL

Was a FAIL this week.  I wrote the same thing on my Weight Loss Blog.  Sorry folks, I will try to get to weighing in tomorrow (maybe Wednesday!). 

McFatty Monday's

If you missed it last week I have officially started a weight loss blog.  Please go check it out and you can read this weeks McFatty Monday's post over there!  Kris joined in this week too, his pics are up as well.  Go read the lowcal Strawberry Mousse Recipe posted too!

McFatty Monday! A BIG CHANGE HERE....

I have made a new blog!  It's going to be just for my weight loss.  A few days this week I wanted to write about my weight, what I'd done that day etc. but I don't want to weigh down (sorry for the pun) my regular blog with all my weight troubles.  Sometimes is okay, but I'd rather have a seperate place just to share and connect with the few of you interested in my weight journey.

So without further ado my 2nd blog.... Kerri-ing Excess Weight.  My Journey to get fit.  Follow it, take the button (code on the new site), or don't.  Up to you!  Click below to see my great weight loss this week AND to read about my applying for The Biggest Loser?!?

Weight Update!

Okay so here is the current weight.  I started last Saturday and my Wii Fit Plus weight was 254.9lbs.  Today I weighed in at 251.8lbs.  Not bad I guess.  I'll take that.

McFatty Monday's.

My husband is soo supportive.  I knew this already, but he really showed me again this week.  I told him I was really serious about losing this weight, that I felt very unhappy with myself and about McFatty Monday's.  I joined up at a website this week, sparkpeople.com, that will allow me to do what WW would (track weight, food, exercise, calories, find recipes...) but it is FREE.  I was thrilled and have been tracking my calories all week!  I have also been upping my water intake, this is the hard part for me.  I hate water.  I'm trying though.  I am feeling like I have more energy and also have been sleeping better this week AND less back pain.  I'm kinda surprised what a week can actually do.

Kris was very proud of me, he watched me doing my semi-lame Wii Fit Plus workout (mostly advanced step aerobics for 20 minutes and boxing) and saw that I was actually seeing some progress (how I felt if not in numbers).  On Thursday he told me that since I was doing so well and he knew I was being serious about this he took me shopping.  He told me to pick out whatever new workout outfit it was that I wanted, and he went to get something.  He got me The Biggest Loser workout program for Wii!  Yay!  So far it's really neat.  I hope it really does me some good.  I will still do some Wii Fit Plus stuff on the side too of course, but this way I won't get bored.  I went and did 40 minutes on the Elipitical machine at our apartment gym this week too - I'm keeping it mixed up so I don't get bored with one thing.  I wasn't planning to get anything new to workout in, but I found stuff on clearance and Kris said I needed to enjoy working out and feel comfortable so new clothes it was.  I thought that was sweet of him.  Then he took me to payless to buy new tennis shoes (I don't have any workout kind, just comfy kind).  I used a gift card I had from my dad left over from my birthday, so I was cheap. 

I've been doing better with my eating habits too.  I have been enjoying the all fruit bars for a treat a night, only like 80cals each and soo yummy.  I have tangerine, strawberry and pomegranite ones.  I also have been eating my eggs either poached or hard boiled.  I have been eating more grilled fish, or tuna and wheat thins for lunch and lots of steamed veggies.  I always have enjoyed healthy foods, I just need to remember to eat them! 

No new weight today, I didn't weigh myself this morning and then I worked out and now I'm eating lunch so well, I'll save the weight check for tomorrow morning and I'll update you then.  :) 

McFatty Mondays - I'm Obese - B4 & After to PROVE it!

So I've held out joining in on McFatty Mondays - hosted by Blair - but it's time I give in.  I think I have just been kidding myself.  I gained 49lbs when I was pregnant with Aiden.  Then I lost 20lbs right away from swelling and water weight etc.  Well, guess what?  I'm back to the same weight I was when I had him... except I have no big baby in my belly to blame.  Just myself.

I'm obese.  Yeah I joke that Wii Fit tells me I'm obese, but really if you look at my height (5'6) and my weight (250) and my BMI on Wii - and well, I'm frickin' obese.  Ugh.  I've struggled with weight all my life.  I have been this size or so once before, then I started dabbling in different eating disorders and at my lowest I got down to be a size 6 - like 150lbs I think.  This was small for me.  My best weight was a size 8-10, I was like 160ish.  I joined weight watchers before Aiden, I was at 219 when I started and lost 10lbs in about 5 weeks.  Then I got pregnant and had to quit the program.

I've been using the excuse that I can't afford to do weight watcher's right now since he was born - and it's true, I can't afford it at all.  $40 bucks a month is a lot of money to 2 unemployed new parents.  The truth is though I have all my old books, and recipe books, and point calculator etc and I should not let the fact I can't "officially" join and go to the website and once a week meeting stop me from using the knowledge I do have.  I just love food too much and hate giving it all up. 

It's time though.  I am currently wearing Lane Bryant Jeans in a size 4 (which by the way I do love how they fit, I've always had a hard time finding good jeans for my shape regardless of my jean size).  A Lane Bryant 4 is equal to an 18-20.  I'm also wearing their size 18-20 shirts and good golly my bra size is a 42DD/40DDD.  Yeah, it's bad.  I'm soo not comfortable in my own body anymore and I can't really use the baby as my excuse much longer.  They say it takes 9 months to put on the weight, it will take 9 months to take it all off.... well, I'm at almost 5 months here and nothing.  I need to step it up if I really want to see a difference, it's not going to just "fall off". 

So here I am.  Admitting my huge failure to take care of myself.  Telling you I have a problem.  I'm putting all my stats out there - which is scary for me - those numbers sound HUGE.  The truth is though, they are HUGE, I'm HUGE, and I have no reason to be.  I need to be happy with myself.  I wanted to be back to a size 10-12 before I got pregnant and Aiden snuck up on me before I was out of my size 16's.  So here I am thinking about another baby in the next year or so.  I need to lose weight for my own sake before I get pregnant again.  We are considering trying to start trying for #2 around the start of 2011 (if Kris finds a good job that is) and before then I want to be back in those 10-12's.  I'm going to do this the healthy way again.  I'm not going to fall back into my old habits, I don't think I have the will power to do so anyway - it was easy when I was hurt and sad and lonely. 

I'm going to start out slow - just eat smaller portions.  I'm a big fan of yogurt, fruit, veggies, chips & salsa, cheese and crackers for snacks, I just need to focus more on those things than eating the leftover chicken nuggets and tater tots or eating cold pizza for breakfast.  That should help a lot.  I drink at least a glass or 2 a day of water, but I'm going to make it a goal to drink one more glass a day.  Lastly I am going to get moving.  Doesn't need to be much - but take more walks with Aiden as the weather keeps getting nicer.  20 minutes of mild step aerobics on Wii every few days.  Just something - anything.  This should at least get me started and then I can keep adding more challenges for myself in time, but I need to start small if I plan to actually get somewhere on my own.  So here goes nothing....

And to motivate myself, and scare all of you, here are pictures taken of me on Saturday.  I'm refusing to buy myself new workout clothes - these were my workout clothes prior to Aiden and these 50lbs... so I apologize for the stuffed sausage look.  It should at least be easy to see the changes as time goes by - these will one day look good on me again.  *sigh* 

The last pictures are of me circa Dec 2007 (a month before I met Kris) and I was a size 8-10 or so here.  This is my goal.