I wish I could go back in time so I would see what to expect and know how to prevent it.
I wish I could have another cup of coffee right now, with homemade bailey's in it.
I wish I could ignore the baby crying instead of sleeping.
I wish I could convince my husband to get help for himself and for us.
I wish I could take back the mean things said out of anger and frustration.
I wish I could ignore the things said to me out of anger and frustration.
I wish I could afford more sewing fabric and accessories.
I wish I could keep everything organized and clutter free.
I wish I could go sit in the rain and not get cold.
I wish I could just disappear for a day and start over the next day.
I wish I could have all the answers.
I wish I could install a nanny cam so that my husband could see that no one came in and drank his juice today, that it was in fact him, he just doesn't remember. He probably still wouldn't believe it though....
I wish I could eat everything in sight right now. I am such an emotional eater and I just want to eat jo-jos and ranch and cheese enchiladas and ben and jerry's ice cream. I just want to eat myself sick.
I wish I could cry, but I don't have the energy.
I wish I could have beautiful flowers in my home to look at everyday.
I wish I could just do anything other than do what I'm doing now.
UPDATE UPDATE
Wow, after several years ive decided to try and resurrect this little blog of mine. I recently told a friend I missed having a place to write. Then out of nowhere a blog "challenge" if you will came about on a public group im in. So here I am and I'm going to try and keep this thing going. Bare with me as I make changes and update content. Feel free to sift through my old posts, you just might learn something new about me....
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
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3 comments:
prayers sent up and your way
I wish you could unburden all of the negative thoughts and feelings while you sleep and wake up refreshed and glad to be where you are right now.
I wish you peace and contentment and happiness.
I hope you can see your counselor, even if your husband won't go along with you. You're worth it.
I wish I had a magic wand to make all of your troubles go away.
My heart hurts for you, friend. I wish I could make all of this go away. Know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you.
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